July 16, 2014

Oh Hello There!

Well. Hi there! :-) It's been a while.

I really thought that I'll celebrate an anniversary of me not having a job. Well, I got lucky. Someone trusted me and gave me a job. :-) Am so really thankful to them, that me, even without an experience would be given a chance. So yeah. I got a job; still in Information Security. I got lucky.

Now everything seems to be going in place.

I had a baby. A beautiful baby boy! I didn't believe this one before BUT, now I can tell, them babies, they make you stronger. Every time I hug him, every time he looks at me, every time he smiles, I feel stronger. All the depression / stress were gone for a moment, if not at all. Babies really are an inspiration. He's 4 months now.

It's been a long time since I got the strength to write something. All I can say is that it's been a hell of a ride this past year. A chapter of my life ends, another chapter, another ride begins.

All I say this: them past two months---I am happy.

So now the challenge is--To make this last longer, if not forever.

Hi there again, world.

“...I wonder when I sing along with you if everything could ever feel this real forever; If anything could ever be this good again.

The only thing I’ll ever ask of you: You gotta promise not to stop...”

— Everlong, Foo Fighters

September 6, 2013

[Ponder] : I'm Settling with Fuji

by Rommel S. G. in Random, As It Is

I've decided to shoot exclusively using my Fuji camera (X-E1 to be exact). I've already sold my 5D Mark II and I've given my Lumix LX5 to my wife. ^_^

It was so much lighter and easy to carry compared to my 5dMark2. I'm amused by its retro-looks and very simple design. And of course, the quality of images are veeery goood. Very comparable to my DSLR [5dmk2].

I'll be waiting for that 2nd full version of Fuji X-Pro (X-Pro2, X-ProS) though. I think its size is perfect for the Fuji lens compared to other smaller X-Series camera that has been released.

But of course, I need to get a job first. My wife will kill me, and I would probably kill myself too if I buy one without getting a source of income first. LOL.

Oooh Happy thoughts.

Looking forward for more good quality photos from this camera.

About the picture above: I don't know her. Haha!

September 4, 2013

I Am Redundant

by Rommel S. G. in As It Is

Did it happen to you? That even you somehow kind of expecting something, and you know it is just a matter of time that it will happen; and then.. Bam! That something happened. And you would still somehow felt surprise. Still felt uneasy.

BAM!

It happened to me. Even before, a year ago, I knew it was coming. My tasks were always changing. The current projects were suddenly be stopped. And I felt that we are just looking for projects/tasks to do. Then two months ago... A meeting notification was sent. After 30min, Tadaaa... We were redundant. Yeah 'we'. The whole floor was deserted. All was done. We are all smiling back then. It is as if we're all expecting it. It seems everything was fine.

At that time. My head was all cheers and saying everything will be okay. All the severance pay that I'lll get will make everything normal. It will be easy to get another job.

OUCH!

Oh boy I am wrong.

Here I am, two months have passed. I am smiling and all but deep inside there's a worrying feeling. I am, troubled. I have made several applications but no progress. And adding the fact that me and my wife are expecting our first born. And the hardest part to see is that she's the one who is working. She's the one providing. I am not providing anything. I am a burden.

There are "what ifs" and "I should haves", all running inside my head. And the more I think of it, the more I feel down. Self-pity comes in. All blaming myself. I am silly! I thought these would be easy.

I am..

Useless.

**Never give up. Be strong. Stand tall.**

YEAH!

But there's also this realization. If I would stay this way, being down and all, and this self-pity stuff, nothing will change. It won't change me being jobless. It won't change me not being able to provide for my family.

There's no one that will put away these feelings but me. There's no one that will solve all these problems but me.

I should put aside this worrying, this uneasiness and this self-pity. And stop all this whining.

I should stand tall and be strong. Never dwell on rejections. Improve myself. Get a job and provide.

HMM!

Now. stop.

Start acting

May 6, 2013

A Cherub Added

by Rommel S. G. in As It Is

Some weeks ago, I attended the christening celebration of my good friend's son. What a better way to schedule a christening celebration than on Easter day. Very nice idea there mom and dad!!!

It was a lot of fun and a lot of food. Yeaaah! And of course, not the least, you get to talk and laugh with your friends.

And oh by the way, to you little buddy:

Welcome to the world of religion. ^_^